Chrysalis

Every single night, the same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still I always feel this strange estrangement
Nothing here is real, nothing here is right
I've been making show of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I've been going through the motions
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart
I was always brave and kind of righteous
Now I find I'm wavering
Crawl out of your grave
You find this fight just doesn't mean a thing
She ain't got that swing
Thanks for noticing
She is pretty well with fiends from Hell
But lately we can tell
That she's just going through the motions
Faking it somehow
She's not even half the girl she - oww!
Will I stay this way forever?
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor?
How can I repay-
Whatever.
I don't wanna be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I can't even see
If this is really me
And I just wanna be
Alive!
You know this is how I actually feel right now. Buffy can sing straight to your soul....

Oh yeah, so today in Anthropology class, this guy Kyle was boasting about how much he likes penis. I found it so incredibly cute. He was actually trying to prove that he was gay. So I was like "So you like penis too, huh?" And he was all "you're gay?" and then another guy says "Ryan's a very open homosexual". I found this so cute cause it was a bunch of sophomores talking. Then me and Kyle ended up talking about Chris Rock and sang No Sex in the Champagne Room.

Then when we got up to present what we were inquiring about( it was a ten dollar bill from Canada). And this other guy, Derek was making passes towards me. It was really gross. I'm very uncomfortable in that class. Cause either the other students don't like me or they like me too much. *dies* The only cool people in the class are Shannon, Melody, and Nikita when she's in class ();-þ

posted by ryryguy @ 10:47 PM