Chrysalis

Positive Ryan: Well, at least we know how to turn percents into decimals and fractions and vice-versa.
Negative Ryan: You mean just like that little button on my calculator? SHUT YOUR MOUTH! *slayer slap*

It's incredibly hard to live in this house now. There's no supervision. And not to mention that I'm feeling very alone. It's hard to sit here and have no phone calls. Or have no mail, except the occasional bank statements. Life really sucks. The only way I get away from all this hurting is by going to work. Even when I'm not schedueled. It's the only place I feel safe now a days.

Anyway, here's a survey that was e-mailed to me.

i am: the incredibly crazy, sexy, and cool R.Dub!
i think: of ways to make my life better
i want: to be famous
i know: that there's no such thing as wrong or right
i have: a growing collection of Ayumi Hamasaki albums and music videos
i wish: I could meet ayu, herself.
i hate: how people treat me
i miss: my ray-ray *sniffle*
i fear: becoming unsuccesful
i feel: alone, very alone
i hear: beyonce knowles, "work it out"
i smell: lemonade
i crave: vanilla coke
i search: for love and understanding
i wonder: will I ever be happy?
i regret: nothing!
i love: ayumi hamasaki
i long: to be rid of all this "hateration"
i care: about Evy
i always: start the day with a song
i am not: as dumb as I look
i believe: that I'm the chosen one!

i dance: all the time
i sing: all the time
i cry: all the time
i do not always: tell it like it is
i fight: to stay alive
i write: what i feel
i win: new perspective
i lose: nothing
i never: give up that sparkle of hope
i confuse: my parents
i listen: to the divas, Ayu, Hikki, Maddona, Kylie, and Cher
i can usually be found: at work or at home watching Buffy
i am scared: of zombies *shivers*
i need: a lover
i am happy when: I get what I want
i expect: everything to be negative
i should: see the positive side more

posted by ryryguy @ 2:48 AM