So yesterday I bought the Buffy Musical soundtrack. Yes, I did. And no, I'm not ashamed. And you know what? Next month they're coming out with the sheet music to the episode! I'm going to be able to play "Something To Sing About" on my keyboard! BWAHAHAHA! }:)

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No, you're not halucinating. This is my blog and this is Anya! Whoo! Go me for an October template! ^^

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So, if you haven't known, I WANT KINGDOM HEARTS! I HAVE to get this game. David Boreanaz is in it and so is Lance Bass. And Hikki sings the theme song, which I downloaded last night. I think Hikaru Utada is the best jpop artist who can actually sing in English. Well, her and BoA. I can't stand that Engrish! >.<

So, after I get paid this week, I'm buying it. But first, I have to get my checks. I ordered them a few weeks ago. I still haven't gotten them. Pisses me off. I'm changing banks again.

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So, I'm addicted to ayu's single, "H." My favorite cut off the single is July 1st. But I can't find the lyrics to it. I've checked my local haunts and came up empty. I found the lyrics to Hanabi and Independent but not this song. Oh well. I'm off to work soon. I don't like working on the weekends. Well, I really don't like working much at all anymore. ;_;
It's just lost my interest. I can try and try to hang in there, but I don't think I'll ever get anything in return. I guess it's time to get a new job. Hopefully, I can get one that doesn't pay minimum wage. Ugh, I never want to make that much again. That's probably why I've stuck with the theatre. That raise they gave me has gotten me spoiled. I don't want to leave.

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Last night was the most wonderful night of my life. Why, you ask? Wesley bought donuts for me. I was just chillin at work and Jeanna sent me to Burger King to get her some nuggets and fries. I come back with Jeanna's food and Wesley is there. He stoped by to pick up his schedule. As we were talking I told him that I wanted donuts from the new Krispy Kreme that just opened. He was like, "ok." I was so shocked he said yes that I offered to pay for them. So I asked him for some Strawberry milk also. Jeanna asked for regular milk and we gave him what donuts we wanted. Well, once he left, I realized that it being a new krispy kreme and all, that it must have been packed. I was so worried that he would be stuck there. But he came back and they didn't have any more strawberry milk so he went to a gas station to get me some. Isn't that sweet? Why can't I find guys that sweet, huh? WHY!

So today was good. Shoko is getting better with her speech and her lines are better. Our performance was really smooth today. I talked to Silvana. And hung out with my new friend Jenny for an hour. She's like 22. She felt so old when I told her I was only 18. ^^

Did I mention how much I want Wesley? I guess not. *roflmao*

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OH MY GOD! I FUCKING LOVED IT! *_*

Except for there wasn't near enough Anya. Spike's hair is scary. And Xander should be nekkid for the whole hour. I'll be a happy Ryan.

posted by ryryguy @ 9:22 PM 0 comments

In case of vampire, break glass!
ROFLMAO!

posted by ryryguy @ 5:08 PM 0 comments

A little less than three and a half hours until I'm with Buffy again. With the show back, maybe I won't be so depressed that much.

Take a look at my desktop! Well, the desktop I share with my brother. He has more icons than I do. But for some reason they still show up on my desktop. o.O

My Desktop

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The 18th was Jimmy's birthday. Happy b-day sweetie!

I lava him! *_*

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"Oh, and you need to turn your television down late at night when I'm trying to sleep! Because I'm better than you and I don't appriciate trying to sleep when Buffy is blaring in your room."

Well, I think that Buffy should be heard all over the world! Fuck you!

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Last call for anyone who wants to take my current test. I'm shutting it down on Tuesday. Right after the Buffy premire, that is. LOL

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Ok, Matt is really pissing me off. I don't understand why he makes Meghan feel this way. If he doesn't want to be friends, he should tell her that. Not just ignore her and make her feel useless. The fucking bastard. I would NEVER let someone make me feel low of myself. Never! Matt should be given thousands of papercuts all over his body and thrown into a pool of lemon juice. Well, the fake stuff. I like real lemon juice. ;-)

What an asshole.

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Saturday Scruples

1. You dream that friends die in a plane crash. The next day they announce a trip to Greece. Do you mention your dream?
Most definately.

2. Your spouse offers to let you have an affair if s/he can. Do you accept the offer?
I'm not a big fan of open relationships. Call me old fashioned.

3. You're a collage teacher. one of your students plagiarized an essay and should fail the course. She's from a disadvantaged minority. Do you make an exception?
No exceptions. I'd sympthize with the student but I'd never make an exception. They will get treated the same way everyone else will.

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So my dad hates me. Because I didn't end up what he wanted me to be. He hates me because he was never there to guide me to be a better person. He hates me because he hates himself. He hates the fact that it's too late to change me. He probably hates the fact that I'm still living and breathing. I'm a walking screw up. If it wasn't for me, he would have been able to live a more enjoyable life. But I'm here making his worse. And that makes my own worse. Why am I still here?

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© What's your Inner Goddess Color?? © Jen

I met a cute guy today. Well, Jeanna introduced me to him. They way she talks about him, I think he might like her. He seems extremely nice. Which means that he most likely would spoil someone he loves. *sigh* I wish someone would spoil me.

I was looking at Sarah and Freddie's wedding pictures. They said that there was a hurrican going on in the next town and then there wasn an earthquake right after the ceremony. That's so cool. *_*

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Yeah, so I was up all night downloading the Buffy Musical. So what? I got it in it's entirety! And it's the DVD so the quality is EXCELENT! Well worth the wait.

They should really work on better toothpastes. Two minutes after I brush, my breath isn't fresh anymore. That really frosts my cookies! >.<

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No more pain
No more games
No more drama in my life
No one's gonna make me hurt again
No more tears (I'm tired of cryin everynight)
No more fears (I really don't wanna cry)
No more drama in my life
I don't ever wanna hurt again

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I really need to quit this not going to school thing. I can't miss any more classes. So I better get my act together. Don't worry, I'm not failing. First time in history. LOL

I ordered three cds last night. Since I don't have plastic anymore, I have to write a check. I hate writing checks. I hate them!

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God, I love Hillary. She's so sweet.
So today was another long shift at work. It was only Jeanna, John, and I. Thanks to Mario last week, I seriously think John hates me. But anyway, before I left tonight, Hillary told me to come back before I left. So I got all nervious. So I hesitated a little before I went back down. She just didn't want me to leave without her saying goodbye. *squeak* That's so nice! ^^

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Let it be known that I do not want to go to work!

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Whee! Check out the new template. I made it myself! Go me!
You can praise me now.

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Which Disney Princess are you?

So, I want a cocker spaniel. They're very cute. But so far, people want $600 for a puppy. A puppy?! Whatever.

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So I finished season 2 today. I don't think I can wait until January for season 3. Who do I have to sleep with to get an advance release of season 3, huh? Someone tell me. Marti? Joss? Sarah? What about Nicky? Someone, please. I need my Buffy! Or, I could wait another week and watch the new season. Yeah, I can last a week, can't I?

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So I'm thinking about getting another dog. Just a little small dog to keep in my room to keep me company. I dunno why. Just with me being alone all the time, It would be nice to have someone to talk to. Even if he can't talk back. *sigh*

Yeah, I'm also sick. Wish me well.

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Ok, so I'm not talking to him anymore. I'm not going to try and pursue anything. Not even friendship. I'm not going to sit here and be mistreated then guilt triped. I thought I saw something different in him. Maybe it was just my teenage hormones taking control again. But I'm not anyone's "Dog" or their "Bitch." I really don't apprieciate some white boy talking like he's black. It makes me very uncomfortable. Especially because it makes me feel as though he's only saying it to tease me because of me being black. Well, whatever. I don't know anymore. Maybe he could talk to me. When he stands up and learns how to be a gentleman.

And thus, life goes on. Although, I wish it wouldn't. I feel totaly awful. I don't have a debit card or a cell phone. How does one live without these necessities? I'm seriously considering changing banks. AGAIN. I really don't know why I moved from BofA in the first place. Yeah, life fucking sucks.

Rachel, I love you, good luck in college.
After tomorrow, all of my best friends will no longer be around me. I really wish I could find new friends. But it's hard. So far, everyone that I've met have been older than me. Don't get me wrong, I like older people. But they can drink legally. I can't. See what I mean? Who wants to babysit?

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What's *Your* Sex Sign?

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I'm glad Ashley and Afton are ok. Now all I have to worry about is Evy. Evy, I lava j00! I miss her so much.

Speaking of missing people, I'm not missing Eric.

Check out what this dumb bunny said. This is actually not the worst of what he's said to me. Oh my god! >.<

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Today was peaceful. I did a lot of work to keep myself busy at work and to apease Mario. Well, I know we're on semi-good terms. I just want to go that extra mile, I guess.

I'm really confused about something. If you want to know more, send me an e-mail.

Oh, and I hope you're home Ashley, because I'm a call you later.

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Oh my gosh, Ashley. I'm so sorry to hear about the accident. Why do we have to be so apart? I really wish I could be there in Fresno to take care of you and Afton. I love you both. Get better.

posted by ryryguy @ 12:49 AM 0 comments

Well, I made a new quiz. And I added Steph to my list. Love ya, Steph! *glompers*

So, I'm thinking about starting an advice column. I know it would be hard to give people advice. But, from what people have told me, I give pretty good advice. I say if you can't help yourself, help somebody else.

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*gasp* Ms. Sharp is already married AND pregnant??? Jeez, I feel so out of the loop. I've only been for three months. ;_;
Congradulations, Ms. Sharp! ^_^

Today, Sarah, Angela, and I were talking about handless masterbation. I don't even know how that works but apparently both guys and girls can do it. I mean, I know all about the dryer and shower massager and stuff like that. But Angela was talking about contracting and releasing muscles. I don't even want to get into it. I'm really starting to like Angela a lot more. I mean she was always sweet. But now there's this darkness about her. No, not DARK dark. More like she's keeping it real. I think it's the fact that Tyler left her. I'm really looking forward to seeing the mature Angela.

posted by ryryguy @ 12:26 AM 0 comments

You are a siren.

What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox

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I had a shitty day at work. Don't want to talk about it.

Ok, either I'm not cool enough to talk to some people or I'm too cool to talk to them. What's wrong with people? I'm really nice. Just don't piss me off. All I ask is that you acknolege my existance. And maybe you could buy me things, too. ^^
I'm really not that high mantainance. I'm pretty self-sufficient. I'm not that spoiled.

posted by ryryguy @ 7:16 PM 0 comments

My mom didn't pay the cell phone bill. So now I have no cell phone. Doesn't bother me. No one calls me anyway. Bastards. --;

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How can I put this lightly? Today fucking sucked!!
First off, I get on the bus to school. And I have my first class. It goes by rather quickly, then as I'm leaving to drama, Jeanna asks me if I want a ride home today. I refuse. So in drama class, we started blocking out performances. It was nice. Althogh when I went up, I didn't have my timing right and I had to walk out the door with a backpack that wasn't closed. Don't worry, it wasn't mine, IT WAS PART OF THE SCENE! ;_; So then I had world mythology and we were talking about fathers who make all these promises and never keep them. Some girl in the class asked whose father is actually like that and I said that mine was. The teacher took pity on me again. I don't know what's up with him. I'm seriously worried that he probably thinks I'm a nut-case. That and it's hard making friends here. No one seems to laugh at my jokes like they did in high school. Then, we were excused early and I was able to catch an early bus home. But the bus, which I caught at 3pm, was full of high school and jr. high school kids. As soon as I got on, I felt like some old man yelling, "You damn kids!" But I'm a child myself. But I even felt out of sync with the people on the bus. It's like I'm not cool enough for anybody. How is that even possible? Now I'm all depressed. I need to go shopping to get my mind off these things.

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1. LIVING ARRANGEMENT?
Living with my Dad and my Brother. Hate it. I'd live with my mom, hate that too.

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
My text books. Two World Mythology books and two Black Humanities books.

3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I don't have one.

4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
Life.

5. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
COSMOgirl.

6. FAVORITE SMELL?
My clogne. Blue Jeans by Versace.

7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL?
My brother.

8. FAVORITE SOUND?
A cash register opening.

9. LEAST FAVORITE SOUND?
A cash register closing.

10. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Being misunderstood or over-looked.

11. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
That I wish my life were more like my dreams.

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
yellow

13. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
I don't know. I check the caller ID first. If it's someone I don't know, which no one I know calls me anyway, I wont answer it.

14. CURRENT OR FUTURE CHILD/CHILDREN'S NAMES?
Tyler and Cordielia.

15. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
Freedom, beauty, truth, and love. And money. Especially money.

16. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
I don't drive.

17. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE - WHO WOULD IT BE??
Whitney Houston pre-crack addiction.

18. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY?
I hate them.

19. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
I don't drive.

20. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
Any expensive wine will do.

21. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
I'm a Taurus. Don't piss me off.

22. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
I don't even eat the leaves! Now let's talk carrots...

23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED - WHAT WOULD IT BE?
International pop star.

24. IF YOU DYED YOUR HAIR WHAT COLOR WOULD IT BE?
Nothing. Dying hair is lame.

25. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
I thought I was, but I was horribly mistaken.

26. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY?
It's half empty.

27. FAVORITE MOVIES?
Moulin Rouge, Bring it On, The Little Mermaid, Cinderella.

28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
I try to, but sometimes it can be a little dificult. IE, I'm too tired.

29. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?
My scanner and some old pictures.

30. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
Twenty-One

31. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
Tennis!

32. FAVORITE SPORT TO PARTICIPATE IN?
Doin' Yo' Mama!

33. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU.
I got one from Rose, and one from Ashley. *glomps both*

34. PERSON(s) YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
I don't know considering the fact that I put this on my blog.

PERSON(S) YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Again, I don't know.

36. WHAT CD/TAPE DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR STEREO RIGHT NOW??
BoA, No. 1. I can't put this cd down. Now I need to know Korean.

37. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Buffy, Angel, The Anna Nicole Show.

38. EARLIEST MEMORY?
My mom sat on me when I was a baby.

39. FAVORITE SONG?
It would be BoA's "Dear My Love."

40. FAVORITE PLACE YOU'VE EVER VISITED?
Will always be good old Los Angeles. Even though I go there twice a year.

posted by ryryguy @ 10:42 PM 0 comments

KELLY WON!

Ok, so I know I don't like this show. But I couldn't sit here and let that ugly-ass Justin win. So I tried watching tonight's show. But I got bored watching and listening to the horrendious singing. Ugh! But when Kelly did her solo, I was blown away. I almost fainted. So I turned off the television and sent out anti-justin vibes. Hate me if you want to. But if Justin cut his hair and got a nose job, he might be somewhat attractive......NOT! :P

And some bitch called my job today just when I was conviently working in box. She asked me if I could get her free tickets and I told her no. Then she said why not, I give my brother free tickets. And I said no I don't. I let him in for free. No tickets. He's family. Then she said that she could be family and told her she wasn't. Then she said that she could be my baby's mama. And I was like, no you're not. I like boys. Then I told her I had customers, which Jeanna had already taken care of, and I'd put her on hold. But I didn't. I hung up on her.

Stupid Bitch.

posted by ryryguy @ 10:12 PM 0 comments

Just wanted to share this Buffy screen shot with you guys. Thanks to UPN 54, New Orleans.

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It's happening again. This time, someone I really care about. That's right. One of my managers. Corey quit. One of the only managers who doesn't treat me like a freak. Now he's leaving. What will I do without him? Who will buy me Vanilla Coke? Who will I buy food for? Mario's always sick and Hillary eats like a rabbit. Now I'm lost. Everyone that enters my life, leaves it. I'm damn tired of it. It's like I don't even want to be around anyone anymore. I feel responsible for all these people leaving. It's like I'm the one driving them away. Because I couldn't be a better friend/co-worker/employee. I want all this pain to stop. I've suffered enough.

And Mario now calls me Peanut. :P

posted by ryryguy @ 11:56 PM 0 comments

You know what I can't stand? This American Idol bullshit! I hate it! I don't give a fuck about any of it. And this Justing guy? Fat-ass ugly! He has this afro. And this fucked up nose. I want to use that nose to open cans with or something. Shit, and Mrs. washed-up Paula Abdol. Please. --;

Ok, I feel better now. ;-)

posted by ryryguy @ 10:21 PM 0 comments

Give it-
Give it to-
Give it to me like I want it!

posted by ryryguy @ 8:52 PM 0 comments

Oh girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl!! Trish, you said Evan Ferguson, right? He might be in my Drama class. I'll do a little more investigations for you. I hope that will keep Toni off your back for a little while longer. ^^

So my mom is pissing me off. She made me switch banks and now I don't have a check card anymore. It pisses me off. Now I can't buy things. And if I have to, I have to pay with, *shudder*, cash. Dirty, filthy cash. Jeezus! Why can't we get rid of cash altogether? I thought plastic was the future. Why is everyone using dirty money? Do you know people wipe their asses with money? And people also snort cocaine with bills. I hate it. Yuck!

posted by ryryguy @ 7:41 PM 0 comments

Well it had to happend sooner or later. I tried and tried to make it last. Only doing it twice a day. But at last, it is over. That's right. I have completed the first season of Buffy on DVD. I read all three discs back and forth. I saw all the episodes. I saw all the comentaries from Joss. Looked at the cast biographies. It was a happy experiece. To re-live why I feel in love with this great television show in the first place. The first season was so different. Knee-high boots, push-up bras. Well, I guess I, or maybe even someone else, will have to go buy season 2.

Oh, and Happy September!

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