Chrysalis

So I've decided to buy a new backpack before the semester starts. I'm just going to give my current one to my brother. Since green is his favorite color anyway.

I've been slowly deteirating. I'm not even half the person I was before. Now I'm upset all the time and I'm constantly crying. I've been taking everything people say seriously. I wear the same outfits all the time. I think people are starting to suspect something. It's hard to go shopping when your mom moves out and is never around. Sure, she was here today. But I never get a chance to spend time with her. Not since we've been in school. It's hard. It's hard to concentrate. I don't know what's wrong with me now. I really wish I could be motivated again. I'm sitting here now. I should be sleeping. I find myself being content more and more with settling for less. Which is one thing I hate more than anything. I don't know why I do it. But I always regret it. Maybe I need better sleep. And I really need to move out. I think the reason I'm unhappy is because this family makes me unhappy. I need to just go on my separate way and forget about them. I'm sure they'd want to do the same about me.

posted by ryryguy @ 12:23 AM