Chrysalis

Ok, so there is like NO privacy at my job! None! I think everyone knows by now that I like Wesley. It's fucking rediculious. Saundra came up to me today and was like, "Ryan, is it true?" And I respond with, "Is what true?" "You have a crush on Wesley?" "OH MY FUCKING GOD! WHO THE FUCK TOLD YOU?!?!" "I'm not supposed to tell"

Well, I know who it is anyway. Jeanna, I'm kicking your skinny ass. So anyway, Saundra said that "this person" was in a conversation with her. I dunno if it was with some other people. But "TP" was just rambling on and on and then blurted out, "Ryan likes Wesley- oh, I mean Josh Harttnet!" Yeah the only person who could so skillfully cover that up would be Jeanna. Dammit. I wonder who else knows. Aint this a bitch? But anyway back to how much I love Wesley. Today I was working box again and none other but the only person whose ever killed me inside. Yup, you've guessed it, y'all. Rachael. And of course, me being just a shell of my normal self, I make a complete fool of myself. So Wesley comes downstairs from threading the movies and he comes in to check on me. He always does that. ^_^ He found poor little Ryan close to tears. And so he tried to cheer me up. I'm still sorta sad, I guess. Back then, I was so sure that I liked girls. That if I had Rachael, I would be able to surpress these feelings I had. But after she led me on for months and then just dumped me all together, I decided to resurface those feelings. Just to let her see what she let go. But I always wonder what would have happened if we were to have made it. Hell, I'd probably end up gay anyway.

Oh and my dear Eric. DO NOT tell me that you got hammered on two glasses of white wine. Because now I really wonder why I ever almost sorta liked you. ROFLMAO!

Oh and I love Angela. She's so adorable.

Oh and I take my drivers training tomorrow. Yeah, me. Eighteen and nine months. I'm finally getting my license. Wish me luck, y'all.

posted by ryryguy @ 3:52 AM