Chrysalis

Well, saying goodbye is never easy for me. I get all stuck and don't know what to say. I always hesitate and just play off like we'll see eachother again. But it never turns out like that. Yes, that's right guys. After seven wonderful years of being the only thing in this world to keep me sane, Buffy is ending. It's gone. Never coming back. Sure, I'll have the reruns for the rest of my life. But who wants reruns all the time? I'm sure 15 years from now I'll be watching Buffy on Nick @ Nite or something. I just can't believe that this is happening to me. It all started earlier this week with an interview for Entertainment Weekly Sarah Michelle had. She said that she will not return to Buffy next year. And then the other day, UPN and Twentith Century Fox have decided not to continue the series. That and any talks for another spin off has been put on hold because Eliza Dushku has agreed to be in a pilot for FOX. And I'm already hearing that some of the characters are moving to Angel anyway.

I'll always remember how I got hooked on Buffy. It was the second week of it airing. The episode was The Witch. I was already a fan of the movie so I decided to watch. It was interesting. I was confused a lot the first time I saw it. But I continued to watch. Getting aquainted with the characters and all. Thinking about how cool Cordelia was. And how sweet Willow was. And how scary Angel was. By the end of the first season, I was hooked. Season 2 started along with my last year of junior high school. I even enjoyed that season more. It wasn't until the third season that I had fallen in love with the series and the star. Sarah Michelle Gellar was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I'd love having her in my bedroom every Tuesday night. To me, I thought she was the closest thing to a girlfriend I've ever had. LOL, come to think about it, I think that I even realized I was gay the same time Willow did. Which brings me to how much I loved growing up with them. And now I don't know what to do. I'm lost without my weekly life story. Sure you can all tell me to suck it up and watch Angel. But I don't want that. I want Buffy. ;_;

If it wasn't for Buffy, I'd be dead. And I'm serious. I would have killed myself without any hesitation if I didn't want to know what would happen at Xander and Anya's wedding. Or how would Buffy finally defeat Glory. I had to know these things. Without it, I don't know what to do.

My favorite show is leaving me. It's like my whole family left me all alone. I'm all alone.

Oh and I'm not crazy. Today, Jeanna noticed the erm... chemistry between me and Wesley. I thought I was trippin. But she saw it too. It's not just me! I repeat, IT'S NOT JUST ME! XD

posted by ryryguy @ 5:41 PM