Chrysalis

Hello everyone! ^_^

I'm back at school. But not for long. There's a little less than a month left until the semester's over. Thank god. I'm so tired of school. I don't even care if I do fail my two classes. I've been so burnt out these last months. I think it's because I work too much. I'm back on top with my hours. Clocking in more time than any of the managers. It's great. I love making money. Just wish I could make more of it.

We went to a timeshare in Angels Camp on Sunday. It was nice. But the drive is 2 and a half hours long. And the roads are all windey. Stupid roads. But it was nice. We only stayed there for a few hours. I got to watch Charmed in the master suite. That was probably the best episode this season. Except that the spotlight is always on Phoebe. Even on episodes not about her. What's with that?
I've decided that never again will I pay my cell phone bill with a check. It takes too damn long and I can't keep track of how much I spend. It's so much more convieant with a credit card.

That new herbal toothpaste is horrible. Sure, it tastes nice. Really nice. But it doesn't even last all day like my Colgate Total. I brush my teeth. And an hour later, I'm chewing gum.

posted by ryryguy @ 11:47 AM 0 comments

So glad to be over the birthday hump. I really hope that I'll start to get better now. Actually I know I'll get better. I don't know why I get so down this time of year. Maybe I'm so used to suffering through things that I execpt things to be bad around this time. Anyway, birthday recap.

I'm quoting this from the un forums.

Well, my birthday went exactly as it has for the longest time. It can never end without me crying. This time, it was at dinner. We went to this fancy restaraunt in San Fran. It was nice. And all the waitors were cute. And my dad decided he didn't want to go. He chooses sleep over anything now a days. So I sorta forget what we were talking about, but before you know it, I was balling in the middle of dinner. And then when I was finished, the sexy waitor gave me a dessert and wished me a happy birthday. I looked up to him with snot and tears running down my face and thanked him. How embarrasing.

But I'm better now.

Birthday Presents

1) Legally Blonde on DVD from Noelle. So far the best present I got this year. Thanks again, Noelle!
2) Two pairs of pants for work from my dad. Cheap bastard.
3) A Jewlery box. Jewlery box??? WTF am I going to do with that?? Oh, and my mom got this for me.
4) Nothing from my brother. Even though I spent a whole paycheck on him for his birthday and his christmas presents. Why they had to be three days apart, I don't know.

Well, anyway. The restaraunt was NICE. It's called Crustacieans. There are three of them. One in San Fransisco and there's also one in Beverly Hills. They cater in Euro-Asian food. It's nice. And all the waitors were hot. And so was the Vallet parker. LOL, they made my brother keep his jacket on because he had a t-shirt on. I knew t-shirts were evil! :P If I knew that we were going to such a nice restaraunt, I would have worn something nicer. Instead I wore the same tired sweater outfit. I wear way too many sweaters. You all should just start calling me Felicity. LOL!

Like I said, I'm glad the madness is over. Now what I really want is my driver's license! Today my mom bought me a hands free speaker phone for my car. It's so cute. It's just a bitch to install places. I put the holster in the wrong place and now it won't come off. Oh well, I can live with that. The speaker has velcro. They all should have had velcro on it. I still have to install the speaker. And I'm going to the dealer next week to get a new headlight and I'm going to see if they have any cup holders. But what I really want is this.

These Mickey Mouse and friends car accessories!
I really want the two visor organizers. The backseat organizer and the Mickey and Friends sun shade. Actually, I want them all. Except for the lame seat covers. No one's gonna cover up my all leather interior. :P

posted by ryryguy @ 1:47 AM 0 comments

A few more things. Today is Jenna's wedding. Congradulations, Jenna. I don't even know what her new last name is going to be. But it must be so beautiful there in Hawaii. Jenny called me today. We've been playing phone tag for the last few days. She wanted to know if I wanted to come with her to get her navel pierced. I said yes. I'm going to get something pierced. I'm gonna either get my eyebrow repierced or my tongue pierced. That way I won't feel like such a godamn prude. UGH, it makes me sick just thinking about myself. >.<

posted by ryryguy @ 3:55 PM 0 comments

So, happy easter, 420, and all that jazz. Hee, Chicago. Anyway, today I thought I'd go and take advantage of the Easter sales at the mall. But no, I'm stuck at my mom's lame house. Doing her chores. Well not really, cause if I had to, I'd leave. Besides, there's nothing to do here but eat. And I've already eaten too much chocolate. Ugh. My tummy hurts. I wanna go buy my birthday presents. Dammit, I want my birthday presents. And I want my birthday money. My parents are lame. And I still hate my grandmother.

posted by ryryguy @ 3:45 PM 0 comments

It's come to my conclusion that I don't post enough in here anymore. But I don't know what to say that wouldn't bug any of you. But what the hell. This isn't YOUR blog! XD

ONE: I feel like I'm too prudish. I try not to be. But I mean, look at me. I do the same thing every day. I'm boring. I need to spice up my life. And as corny or as sexual as it sounds, it's the truth. Maybe I should get something pierced. Yeah, I did that before and I just pussied out and pulled it out. What makes me think that it would be any different. I need to make some time out and do some serious soul searching. I'm gonna go to the mall tomorrow and get my birthday shop on. Sad thing is, I can't spend all my money. Cause Ryan has bills to pay now. And my cell phone bill was almost $60. That's ludicris. BLAH! Maybe I could hit mom up for some early birthday money. And then I can ask daddy for some, too. Hee. I love this whole separated household. ^_^

TWO: This goes out to Scott Peterson, You slimy bastard. I hope that you get locked up for a good few months before they kill your pathetic ass. So you didn't want to be with your wife anymore. I can understand that. But why would you fucking kill her and her unborn child? Especially when all you had to do was ask for a divorce. I'm sure she would have said yes. But no. When you get locked up, you might as well not wear any pants. Because you'll be everybody's bitch. And that's a known fact. You dirty bastard. I hope you die as horrible as poor Laci. And if not, watch out for me.

posted by ryryguy @ 8:30 PM 0 comments

Wow, I haven't posted anything for a long time. Maybe because there isn't anything to post about. Work was long yesterday. But while I was out the door going to work, I noticed a package from amazon on my doorstep. I was wondering "what the hell did my brother order now?" But it had my name on it. So then I was pissed. Because I had either ordered something a long time ago and forgot about it, or amazon THOUGHT I ordered something. So I take it to the car with me and me and my mom open it. Turns out it was a birthday present from NOELLE!! Boy what a moron I was. :P
Well, she bought me Legally Blonde on DVD. And I was so excited. I went around all day doing the "Bend 'N' Snap".

Thank you for the present, Noelle! That was very sweet of you. *Covers Noelle with chocolate kisses*

posted by ryryguy @ 11:36 AM 0 comments

I wish I was turning twenty-one instead of nineteen. That way me and Jenny could hang at the bars all spring break. That would be fun. I bought a map of San Fransisco to put in my car. Now I know where to go. And it came with a compass. Pretty cool, huh?

Shane West. That boy is so cute. I love him. I wish we were like best friends or something. Yeah, best friends who had sex together. You know, those kind of deals.

Well, after thinking I did so well on my tests last week. I failed both of them. I can make them up. But I'm not doing very well in those classes. I hope I get some pretty decent grades. I don't even know why the hell we need algebra. Unless you want to be a fucking engenieer or something. But I'm not going to sit at home one day and try to fucking solve for X. Or B. Or that stupid Y. What the hell?

Also, I don't understand why I'm busting my ass trying to memorize dead guys who were wrong with their astronomical predictions!! Shit, they said the earth was flat. Why do I care? They were wrong! >.<

posted by ryryguy @ 8:38 PM 0 comments

I'm bored. I want some food. OOH, I want pancakes. Mom has some bisquick at her house. When I get home from school, I'll go to her house and jack her bisquick and her good skillet and come back home and make me some pancakes. With some maple syrup. Or even honey. With bacon and sausage. Or I'll put penut butter and jelly on them. Oh yum! Or penut butter and bananas. Or peanut butter and bananas and honey. Oooh.

Or I could just go downstairs and go to the cafeteria and eat something now. Good idea.

posted by ryryguy @ 11:42 AM 0 comments

Yeah, wanna know something even worse than Cheetos? Fucking pork rinds! They're evil! So evil, my dad bought me a bag and I can't put them down. The bastard. Why would he do a thing like that? The same reason he takes my car and acts like it's fucking his car. That pisses me off. He takes my car out while he's drunk. If he fucks my car up, I'm gonna take his truck.

Ugh, and I just took some old ice cream out to throw away. And what does he do? He puts the shit back in the freezer. You know ice cream is bad when there's ICE growing on it. Fuzzy ice! Dammit! >.<

posted by ryryguy @ 3:05 PM 0 comments

Well, It says I was going to bed at 8:45. And I did go to bed then. BUT, I was woken up by some thunder, which I thought was a terrorist attack. But after that I just couldn't get back to sleep. So, I've been up since 2 in the morning. I'm so tired. But I don't want to sleep. I'm afraid I'm just going to get woken up again and not be able to go back to sleep. I hate not getting enough sleep.

Here's a tip: Cheetos are evil! Especially if you're wearing black. Or any color in any shade in that matter. Just don't eat them and Frito-Lay will make them go away. I said put them damn cheetos down!

Oh and to those who don't know yet, I changed my AIM screen name to Lemon Pepper Boy. I don't know how long that will last. Considering that once that container of lemon pepper in my cabinet is gone, I'll probably be over my lemon pepper phase. Oh well, I guess my next screen name could be, JenniferAnistonisHot. If that's not already taken. ^.^

posted by ryryguy @ 8:30 PM 0 comments

I just got back from Bringing Down The House. It's a good movie. I love Queen Latifah so much. Well, I'm really depressed and tired. So I'm going to bed. I need sleep. I really hope I can sleep well tonight.

posted by ryryguy @ 8:46 PM 0 comments

Wow, I almost over reacted last night. I just don't know what's wrong with me. I could be depressed. But I haven't acted like I have been. I think I just need a break. I can't wait until spring break. Even if my birthday is on it. Ugh, I just hope I don't have to go to Southern California for Spring Break. I hate going down there. I wish I didn't have a birthday. That would make things so much easier. Believe me. 19 is a crappy year, anyway. And so is 20, for that matter.

posted by ryryguy @ 1:44 PM 0 comments

It's not like I'm overwelmed. It's just that I've been so preoccupied with everything else happening in my life. I'm so behind in my Astronomy class. I'm sitting here, trying to do homework that I don't even know what to do. I feel like I'm stupid. I haven't felt this bad since high school. I thought I was over that part of my life. Maybe I am overwelmed. It seems like the only class I'm good at is this drama class. Funny, in high school, that would have been the last class I would have taken. Math and Astronomy has been even worse when my calculator decided that it's battery was gonna die this weekend. I just got it replaced today. That's what I get for trying to be all hard core and buying a calculator that isn't solar power. I don't even know why I'm even taking Astronomy. Then there's the issue of this promotion. Mario told me that he wasn't sure of the Chief, but he's gonna make me a projectionist. Which is nice, but I need more money. More money than even a chief can make. I have to pay for auto insurance. Plus, my car takes premium gas. Which, if you have been living under a rock, is the most expensive gas there is. I saw it at a whoping $2.50/gallon. That's a lot. And plus the $200 I'll be paying a month for insurance, I don't think I'd make it. How is that everyone can manage things so easily and yet, I'm crying my self to sleep worrying about the future. I haven't even been sleeping well. If I finnally fall asleep, I end up waking up each hour. And what really bugs me, I wake up exactly an hour before my alarm comes on. That agrivates me.

I've been on my toes even more than usual now. Now that it actually being the month of my birthday, the days will just get worse and worse until the actual day of my birthday where it will be the worst day of the fucking year. I wish I could have been born on leap year or something. That way I'd only have to worry every four years. I envy people born on that day. It's the second and I'm already threatening my mother not to do anything. I'm going to even have to call my grandmother and tell her to keep her prudish ass out of my fucking business. It's all her fucking fault that my graduation party was so lame. Because no one came. So at the last minute, my mom calls a bunch of family members I haven't seen in years. That was fun. My mom and her mom. Bitches.

Then let's not get me started on how incredibly dull my life is. I don't do anythng. Just work and the I try to get school in around that. I've been working too hard for the measily beans they pay me. I should at least be making $3 more than what I make now. Plain and simple. I work my ass off, then I go to school, not having any homework because I decided that I'd rather sleep. But I can't sleep. So I should have done my homework. Then I get all this caca in my head. I start to put myself down. Like what I'm doing right now.

My allergies are kiling me. I can't find my allergy medicine. And my asthma is getting worse. I had an asthma attack that lasted half and hour today. I was sixteen the last time I had one that bad. It's just awful. I wish I could outgrow it. My asthma is the only thing that holds me back. It's like, if I didn't have this disease, I could easily lose more weight than I have now. I could have more confidence, get a better paying job, so I'd have money to buy clothes from the trendy stores. Then people would like me because I'd look great. And I had a great personality. And then I'd have lots of friends and people would come over to my house every weekend just to watch me do silly things like wash my car. And that cute boy in my math class would want to be best friends with me. I could go to places and get in free because I looked good. And everyone around me looked good, too. I could actually get a date and not sit here being a virgin until I'm thirty. And they'd have money too. That way I could actually get away with being a theatre major and still afford to live. People wouldn't look at me like I'm some icky animal. Because I hate animals. Well, I do like animals. As coats. I don't want to be an animal. And everyone wonders why I burned all the photos of me from grade school up. No one wants a picture of a bear on their wall. They'd much rather have a human being.

I'm a bear. No, I'm a big fat puffer fish, that's out of water. Because the fish can't breathe because he has fucking ASTHMA!!!!!!!

Well, I'm going to go to bed now and fail my astronomy class. And probably even my algebra class. I just don't get anything anymore. It could be because I'm too busy sucking on my inhaler to get anything the teachers say.

posted by ryryguy @ 12:50 AM 0 comments