Chrysalis

I just realized that the counter doesn't work anymore. That's weird. Anyway, five days left. ;_;

So I've decided. I can't really afford to do anything now. Not with paying for school and now I have to pay for insurance. I've decided that I can't work and go to school anymore. I can't do both. It drains me. I'm not going to go to school next semester. Just to see what it's like. So far, it seems like a pretty solid plan. I don't have to worry about tuition or books. And I don't have to sit in class and be an idiot. I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not. And pretending to sit in class and pretending to learn things just isn't cutting it anymore. And I don't see why I have to go to school anyway. I've been in school for 13 years. That's too much. And if people expect me to go to school for another three years, they are sadly mistaken. I'm through with it. You can have your higher educataion. I'm fine with the 13 years of hell I've been through.
I'm tired of not having any money. It's because I don't work enough. These past few weeks have been hard. Not having anything to eat. Does anyone know the last time I bought new clothes? A very long time. I've been wearing the same clothes for almost a year now. I've never done that. It makes me sick to my stomach to see myself like this. God, I wish that this was happening to someone else and not me.

But once this semseter is over, I can focuss more on the more important things in my life. Which, in reality, school is not one of them. Never has been and never will be.

But I could go on forever talking about why I can't stand it. But I have to go deposit my measily pay check in the bank.

posted by ryryguy @ 5:34 PM