Chrysalis

current...
attire: work uniform; maroon shirt, black khaki pants, no shoes, whit socks, gold chain. oh and my eyebrow ring! ();-}
scent: nothing *sniffs*
sounds: as if, blaque
taste: cherry coke
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Could it be? Some one other than Buffy is singing how I feel? You r0ck on Tara!

I lived my life in shadow
Never the sun on my face
It didn't seem so sad though
I figured that was my place
Now I'm bathed in light
Something just isn't right

Yes, I'm feeling a bit estrangement from my friends. They seem to treat me more and more disrespectful. And they still act like they want to be my friends? I'd rather be hated than pitied. I've been told by my mom, brother, my psychologist, and Zane that I should really let them go. And that's where rocker dyke Tara comes in. I've always been treated like a "looser" and have accepted that. But lately, I've found that the "populars" treat me a lot better. My current friends, well most of them, are pity and always seem to bog me down with their problems to make me feel worse than I already do with my own damn problems. And they know what I go through and they STILL do it. They seem to only like certain parts of me and a true friends would love me regardless. Plus none of them have the same interests as I do.

Now that I think of it, if it took a musical episode of Buffy to realize how I really feel, I'm as pathetic as they are. *nod*


And where the hell is Jenny? We're supposed to see Harry Potter tomorrow and she was supposed to talk to me online tonight. Oh well, I guess I'll call her in the morning. This shall be the last selfless deed I do in a long time. I'm serious this time. Belive me.

And not to forget, there's the HOTTEST guy working at the theatre now. His name is Kenny. Me and Ashley were swooning over him. And we both hit Brendon to the curb. But then Ashley had to fling herself all over him and I just decided to give up. Cause I can't compete with a patite black woman. Believe me, my mother is one. ();-þ So I decided to stay faithful to my big daddy hunny buns. Yes, and Brendon was so very excited about that as well. ();-}

And I got my paycheck today. A measly $97. I guess I'll have to cut my shopping spree short. To maybe just a new pair of shoes. Dammit. I wanted two pairs, too! ():'-( What did I do to deserve this? I'm a good person. Why must I die of poverty? Now I have to budget my money. I've never had to do that. The thought gives me knots in my stomach.

Well opening night of Harry Potter wasn't as bad as I expected. But I would of loved to see some fundimentalists protest outside my theatre. The funniest thing happened. These little girls came by all strung out on Harry Potter hype, came up to me and were like "do you know the secret power of.... telekinesis?" I tried not to laugh my ass off and pretend I was all interested. I'm all "Yes! That's the power to move things with your mind! WOW... oooh ahhh!!" They said, "this boy at our school has it and he can pass it on to people, I have it, too!" That's when I was like "Really!?! I would love to have telekinesis!" so I could throw you scary little brats out of me sight! BWAHAHA!!! Yeah... I'm bad. ();-p

posted by ryryguy @ 12:35 AM