Chrysalis: 08/01/2002

8.31.2002

Saturday Scruples!

The couple in the next apartment is brawling. Later, you speak to the woman who has minor bruises. She asks you not to call the police. Do you call them?
Of course, I would. She may say no now, but her and her spouse could get into another fight and she might end up even more hurt. Or even dead.

A member of the school board is convicted of shoplifting. She is a competent official. As a parent, do you support demands for her resignation?
Yes. If she is a competent official, why would she need to be shoplifting?

You're shaken up in an auto accident. Your lawyer can get a large settlement if you exaggerate your aches and pains. Do you?
Yes.

I was looking up Kingdom Hearts. I fucking want this game. I don't even have a PS2! But damn, I have to have it. The theme song is an english version of "Hikari" by Utada Hikaru. My hero!! Someone buy me a PS2. Right now! >:-)

So, it's been a year since I started this blog. Celebrate?

8.28.2002

I know I sound kind of selfish for saying this, but now that Meghan and Matt are separated, maybe I could have a chance to be with Meghan more. Not anything romantic, but on a friendly level. I mean, I've only known her for not even a year and we know so much about eachother. Even if we come off as polar opposites. Her being pretty, popular, and athletic. And me being, well, a bovine. ^^;
But, with everything that has happened to me in the past few years, it's been hard for me to let anybody in my life. I've been forced to not trust anybody. I have a few friends now. People from work. And I guess that's enough

8.27.2002

This really pisses me off. So I rented Moulin Rouge a few days ago. I just now had time to watch it. About half way into the movie, it stops. So I try to play it again. Same thing happened. So I took the DVD out and saw a lovely pattern of scratches decorating the other side of the disc. I was so thrilled that I'm taking the damn thing back tonight. Oh, and thanks to Jeanna and Pam for giving me rides to and from school. Very nice of them. *squishes Jeanna*

You know the vending machines at school are too expensive when you pay $2.50 for candy and a bottle of water. In high school, it would have only cost me $1.75. Bastards! The bakery looks damn good, though. Has anyone eaten from it? I love pie. Especially pumpkin. :-9

8.26.2002

This just in. Meghan and Matt have broken up. More to come at eleven. Oh wait! It's already past eleven. :-P

Today was eventful. Went shopping with mom and grams. Bought a new cd player, a universal remote, a cd carrosell, wall hooks, some DVD's for Randy and a alarm clock, and I bought two pairs of shoes. Well my grandma bought one and I bought my work shoes. They are really cute. They look like tennis shoes but they are steel toe boots.

At Wal-Mart, I saw Buck. He was really sweet and I missed him. We caught up on some things and he said how much he misses the theatre even though he doesn't miss the managers. He seems to be doing well. And I'm glad. I'd hate to see him in the gutter all thanks to the managers at work.

Did I mention I love Sunnydale Cordelia? Well, I do!

I am 25% British, just like
Gwyneth Paltrow
With enough practice you can sound British but do you really understand what you are saying?

Take the Brit Quiz at
www.darrenlondon.tripod.com/britquiz1.htm
Quiz written by Daz

Yes, I am QUEEN!! Well, not of England. LOL!

8.25.2002

I've realized something. Now that Angela and Tyler have broken up, Angela is a lot more enjoyable to hang around. She's really sweet. Now that she doesn't have Tyler to hang all over, she'll most likely become less dependant. First step in growing up. I believe.

So, there's a fire in Martinez. Don't be surprised if I don't come back. Even though the fire is accross town. All the shrubs around here. Shoot, might as well pack my things now if they can't get this fire under control.

Things keep getting better and better. Me and Jeanna were talking and it looks like we have the same schedules at school. So she thinks that we should start car pooling together. YAY! No more evil bus! >:-D

Let me tell you all. Cooking bacon on a George Foreman Grill is an absolute must. All the fat is drained and they come out nice a crispy. Uber-Delicious! Oh, and this is coming from someone who hates bacon. ;-)

I want my tongue pierced.

8.24.2002

Disneyland pics are up. So look at them already.
Oh, and buy me some DVDs. *points to his wishlist*

So, the party went on. But it was nice. I got to see my family and things. Ashley came. I was really glad she did. I got a lot of neat presents. I can't wait to put them all up once my reorganized. And my brother bought me the greatest thing. He bought me a new DVD player and the first season of Buffy on DVD. I was so shocked. I wanted to cry.

My cousins were out of town and they bought me two Sailormoon S tapes. Dubbed. Yeah, I know. I outgrew that years ago. But still. It was very nice. *glomps*
My other cousins bought me an Eyore mug. Now I have something to drink my tea in. ^^;

Ashley told me Evy was at the theatre last night. Dammit, why couldn't I have gotten a chance to see her. ;_;
I miss you, girl.

Oh, and I got my pictures from Disneyland back. I'll have them up shortly.

8.22.2002

I just took some pictures of my new backpack outside on the patio. So take a look!
Buy me bright green things to go with it! ^_^

My Gallery

8.21.2002

I thought I was going to go do my homework, but I'm here. Here posting in the forums and making my first mix cd. I know it's wrong. But I couldn't help myself.
So what did I do today? Worked. Came in at 1:30 and left at 5:30. Which sucks now. I liked working past 10:00. Now I show up for just four measily hours. I don't even get a break. It sucks. But it won't be like this for long. I give it two more weeks.
I bought my text books today. Total came to $92. OUCH! >.<
I also went to Wal-Mart and bought a new day planner. And for the first time in three years, it's not a Buffy one. I know. I feel lost too.

So, want to know what's on my new cd?

3LW - I Do (Wanna Get Close To You)
Destiny's Child - No No No (Remix)
Faith Evans - Love Like This
Beyoncé Knowels as Foxxy Cleopatra - Hey Goldmember
Jennifer Lopez - I'm Real
Jennifer Lopez - Ain't It Funny
Jennifer Lopez - Ain't It Funny(Remix)
Joy Enriquez - Tell me how you feel
Kylie Minogue - Spinning Around
Khia - My Neck, My Back
Monica - All Eyez On Me
Monica - The First Night
Res - They Say Vision
Tweet - Oops Oh My
Truth Hurts - Addictive
Mariah Carey - Honey
Mariah Carey, Ludacris, Da Brat - Loverboy Remix
Lisa Stansfield - Been Around The World
Eve feat. Alicia Keys - Gangsta Lovin'
Hikaru Utada & Foxy Brown - Blow My Whistle

20 tracks of pure listening pleasure. I can't wait to pull this bad boy out on the bus tomorrow. ^^

8.20.2002

I thought mom cancelled the party! That bitch is getting an earfull tomorrow. And that's for sure.

First day of College was interesting.

First off, my Humanities professor is a weirdo. All we did was laugh at him all period. Molly's in my class. And she didn't look like she robed a bank. So I better tell Ashley that. Besides, Jailhouse grey is not her color, anyway. :-)
As I was trying to find the next class, I think I saw Silvana. She called me months ago and I never returned her call. I felt sorry. But I couldn't say anything to her because I was too busy talking to my mom on my cell phone. Funny thing about DVC, everyone has one. It's hilarious. So the next class was Drama. The class was full and I was so close to not being able to add it. It's supposed to be a really good class. And I'm in there with a bunch of wannabe drama majors. There is this one really hot guy in the class. But this not-so-cute guy said hi to me. I was glad. People are nice here.
Then when Drama was over, I went back outside. It was about 1:45 and the sun made everything hot. And it didn't help that every other person was smoking. I wanted to die. So as I'm getting ready to walk to the next class, talking to my mother, I run into Elia. She's still the same, talking on the phone to Terri, who forgot who I was. I also saw Cheryl. Cher-Bear! ^^
The next class was World Mythology. The teacher is cute. And the girl I sat next to, Carla, was really nice. WOW. I might like this college thing afterall.

Oh yeah, last night when I bought my backpack, I bought some really cool cologne. It's Blue Jeans by Vercace. I love it!

Well, I start my class tomorrow. Then I have to choose a few more classes and add them. I hope I can. I shouldn't have waited till the last minute. I didn't even get to go on vacation. ;_;

Today, I bought a new backpack. I know, I buy one every year. But this one's different! Ok, no it isn't. But I had to have it. It's a Jansport and it's bright green. Who would have thought. Me, Ryan and a green backpack. Yeah, green's not even my color. I'm sure if they came out with a yellow one, I'd be all over that.

I can't wait for my African American studies class. I hear the teacher calls everyone the N word in the first class. TEEHEE
I've never been called that before. Except for the few occasions where the was tuffs with the local white trash. Oh wait, I live in Martinez. It's white trash breeding ground. :P

And because I've got no shame,
I need a new wallet, a new planner, and I need new clothes!

Oh, and I can't find my red sweater. :-(

8.18.2002

Well Evy left the other day. Once again, I didn't get a chance to say goodbye. That seems to happen a lot with me lately. I probably wouldn't be able to say goodbye anyway. I'd probably would have started bawling or something. I give it a month. A month until i'm completely alone. I know this is mostly my fault. Not with Evy leaving, but with me pushing people out of my life. I gave up everything hoping that there was something out there better for me. It's hard living in a house where your image is more important than your happiness. And I wouldn't have it any other way. I'd rather be hated than pitied.

8.17.2002

Which incarnation of Kylie are you?

You know it, Baby!

*sigh* I'm so tired. I can't believe Summer is almost over. I don't know what I'll do without having to go to high school. I dunno, maybe PARTY?
I miss Evy already. I don't want her to leave me. I haven't seen her in days. I want her to call me. ;_;

Now that her and Tyler are gone, they brought Saundra back. Blech! I don't like the bitch. XP

8.16.2002

I wish it was fall already. I really miss my sweaters. ;_;

So yesterday, my mom signed me up for this African American Humanities class that I DID NOT want to take. She's such a pushy bitch. That's why I made her cancel my graduation party. It's too much to handle. Now I know why I never had a party in high school.

And I had to pay $40 for this unwanted class. FIENDS! *eats the admin at DVC*

8.15.2002

This here be dedicated to Evy,

BUFFALO STANCE
Neneh Cherry

Who's that gigolo on the street
With his hands in his pockets and his crocadile feet
Hanging off the curb, looking all disturbed
At the boys from home. They all came running
They were making noise, manhandling toys
That's the girls on the block with the nasty curls
Wearing padded bras sucking beers through straws
Dropping down their drawers, where did you get yours?

Gigolo, Huh, sukka?
Gigolo. Gigolo, Huh, sukka?

Chorus1:
Who's looking good today?
Who's looking good in every way?
No style rookie
You better watch don't mess with me

Chorus2:
No moneyman can win my love
It's sweetness that I'm thinking of.
We always hang in a Buffalo Stance
We do the dive every time we dance
I'll give you love baby not romance
I'll make a move nothing left to chance
So don't you get fresh with me

Get funky. Yeah Timmy.
Tell it like it is. Check out this DJ.

So you say you wanted money
but you know it's never funny
When your shoes worn through
and there's a rumble in your tummy
But you had to have style get a gold tooth smile
Put a girl on the corner so you can make a pile
Committed a crime and went inside
It was coming your way but you had to survive
When you lost your babe, you lost the race
Now you're looking at me to take her place.

Chorus1

Smokin.' Not cokin.' Get funky sax.
Looking good, hanging with the wild bunch.
Looking good in a Buffalo Stance.
Looking good when it comes to the crunch
Looking good's a state of mind
State of mind don't look behind you
State of mind or you'll be dead
State of mind may I remind you
Bomb the Bass...rock this place!
What is he like? What's he like anway?
Yo' man what do you expect the guy's a gigolo man
You know I mean?

Chorus2 X 2

Wind on my face, sound in my ears
Water from my eyes, and you on my mind
As I sink, diving down deep...deeper into your soul.

Chorus2 to fade...

8.14.2002

Today is my mom's birthday. We're gonna take her out to dinner. And then my dad bought her this beautiful 14k gold crusifix. I think it's breath taking. I hope she likes it.

I'm so glad I heard from you, Ashley. I've been so upset with everyone leaving me and now this is proof that we will keep in touch. Getting that e-mail from Ashley brightened my day.

I don't want to be alone anymore.
But I guess I'll have to cry myself a river and build me a bridge and get over it. XD
That's not funny... ;_;

I'm so tired of people leaving me. First Ashley and Afton, and now Evy. Tonight she quit. As soon as word spread to me, I felt this feeling in my stomach. Like I was going to throw up or something. You know that feeling you get before you cry? That's what I've been experiencing all night. It sucks. I don't want to feel this way. I don't everyone to leave me. Not at all. I don't want to be alone. I've been having this reacuring dream where I'm with all my friends and one by one, they all disappear. And I'm stuck in this blury void all alone. And the only thing keeping me company are my tears. I know that sounds cheesy, but it's true.

8.13.2002

I absolutely love my new cds. Well worth the wait. Hikki's new album is enchanting! :D

8.12.2002

I FINALLY GOT MY FUCKING CD's!!!
More later, Gotta go to work. :D

So I put the gallery up on my web page. The buttons aren't working for some reason. If someone knows what the problem is, pleas e-mail me. I don't understand why it isn't working.

Like Ashley liks Thomas. That makes me sick at so many levels. Yucky!
Yeah, I bet someone out there is sick at the thought of me liking Wesley. So, I'll shut up, now.

8.11.2002

Which character from Lilo & Stitch are you?

Which character from SpongeBob SquarePants are you?

*yawn*
I'm super tired. I really want a vacation. I really want to go to Disneyland. But I have no one to go with. Damn, I want to go to Disneyland!

Take the 'Which Archangel are you?' Quiz!

Which Archangel are
you? by Xera

8.10.2002

So I chose a new template. I hoping to keep this one up for as long as possible. No more changing every month. So I got rid of those stupid pictures. Yeah, I'll miss them, too. But They were taking up space. So now I'm off to work on my web site some more.

8.09.2002

Let me tell you how phoney Triple X was. There was way too much action. I don't watch that much action flicks, but this was WAY too much action. Every second, something had to be blown up or someone had to be shot. They couldn't act like civilized people for ten seconds. Oh well. Vin Diessl is hot. And I just found out he's half black. Wait to go, my brotha!

*swoon* Wesley gave me a ride home tonight. Well, he gave Ashley a ride, too. I tried to show him around my area the best I could at 2:00 in the morning. I really need a life, don't I? OK, don't answer that.

Now that I got my diploma, my parents are going to force me to find a new job. And I hate that. Because I've been working at the theatre for almost a year. They're like family to me. I have Ashley, who's kinda like a twin sister to me. Jeanna and Hillary who are like older sisters. Both Nicks are like cooler older brothers. and John and Mario are like fathers to me. *sniff* I think I'm gonna cry now. But, I'd have to leave them at one point or another. All my friends are leaving. Maybe it's a sign that I should too.

8.08.2002

Everyone's leaving me. Evy found an apartment last week. Once she moves, I won't have anybody. ;_;

So I got my diploma today. It's really cheap looking. I worked that hard for some dinky piece of paper? Whatever. I should have just gotten my GED like I had planned to do.
Mr. France kept going on and on about jobs and education and I was like, "Can I have my goddamn diploma, now?" But I'm glad I got it. Now I don't have to step foot on that lame ass school ever again.

FUCK ALHAMBRA!!

Afterwards, we went to McDonalds. Is it me, or do the workers there just don't know any English? The continued to screw up our order even after my mom corrected them. Retards. Non English speaking retards. *ugh* Now don't get me wrong. I'm all for forigen people. But when they work in services where they are required to speak English, it would help if they learned it. I mean, if I were to move to Japan and work there, I would definatly learn Japanese. The same thing with Mexico.

I'm seeing Triple X tonight. I hope it's good. And if not, Vin Diessel is hot anyway. Am I right?

I could so go for a chicken grande burrito from Pepe's. Damn good.

8.07.2002

So all of Martinez's tap water was contaminated for two whole days. What had happened was there was an outbreak of bacteria in the water, so the water treatment plant put algae in the water to eat all the bacteria. So then we had a bunch of algae. So they tried kill them with bleach but they didn't put enough in, or so that's what they said. But anyway, the water's fine now. Not like I drink tap water or anything. But we couldn't sell any fountian drinks at work because of it. So now we have a lovely array of bottled drinks. I even bought a pink lemonade Snapple. Good gawd, that was good. ^_^

So Liz tells me that she's had an online journal for almost a year like me. But hers was recently deleted. So I told her that she should get a blog. I hope she does, I want to add her to my list.

8.05.2002

Damn, I'm gonna have to move this soon.

So far, two people have taken my test. And I can't recognize their names. Who are you two people?

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you, Crystal Wings!

So the writings are up from the old site. And as soon as I upgrade it, I'll move the blog over there too. ENJOY!

Oh, and the gallery isn't up yet. Give me some time, y0.

So I set up an account at Brinkster. And at first I was only gonna use it for my blog. But instead I'm gonna make me a new web site. Yes, I know it has been a long time. But it will give me something to do.

I'm gonna move this to a new server soon.

Ok, my secret is out. I like Wesley. I don't know why. He's not usually my type. He's short and has bright red hair. But he has this infectious laugh. And he laughs at everything I do. I love it!!
And I especially love the fact that he has a girlfriend. ;_;

8.04.2002

Take the 'Which Magic Stone are you' quiz! by. Xera a.k.a Xerampelaine

Which Magic
Stone are you? by. Xera

Work was great. Tom ordered pizza for us. Tyler was such a sweetie. Well, to me anyway. I think he's so cute. Too bad he's Angela's. He has a pretty cute friend, too.

I just made a new friend test. Take it! XD~

Kris, I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do. Even though I don't know you very well, I still feel as though I should do something. But all I have is love and support. And so does the rest of Unladylike. Take care, sweety. One day at a time.

8.02.2002

Ragnarok servers closed for three months. Yeah, that just means that I'll never play it again. Fuck that! Now I have to find something else to do.

Just when I was kicking major butt on RO, I got stuck in Geffen! I don't know how the hell it happened. I was in the weapons shop in Prontera and then I walked out and ended up there. What the hell is up with this game? Poor Gravity. I e-mail them every week with a new unstick request. I hope this time it's the last one.

And let me tell you, Signs is a scary ass movie. All up to the end. The ending sucked. It sucked hard. I want my money back! Oh wait, I saw that for free. :-)
My bad?

8.01.2002

That should be enough editing for today. Or should I say this morning. ;-)

Happy August! *parties*

How hard is it to find someone to talk to? Jeez, AIM won't let me search for people. Now Ryan is pissed.

Do you know who I miss the most right now? Alexis. I wonder where that girl is. When I go to my mom's house, I always walk by Foster's and by her old house. I wonder what she's up to. I wonder. Maybe she's reading this! :-O

HI ALEXIS!

...yeah right, like she's even reading this. :-/

Chrysalis