Chrysalis

I shouldn't brag, but I feel compelled to. Everything is starting to even out. I'm finally getting a break in this crazy thing called life. And for the first time, I'm not worried about a ton of things. I can sleep well. I mean, I'm losing weight. It's slow. But it's great. Pretty soon I will have to buy a whole new wardrobe. And I'll have Daddy's wallet to help me with that. He'd be more than happy to buy me smaller clothes. I got a car and a phone. It's like I've been attacked with the notion of freedom. My Volvo is too cute. Anyway, I might be getting a promotion at work. Hell, I better be getting this promotion at work. It would be too fucked up if I didn't. I mean, the only thing that would make me even more happy, would be a boyfriend. But we all can't have everything, now can we?? But we can sure as hell try!

And in other news, Ryan's hit some sort of gross growth spurt. Yeah, I'm getting TALLER! WTF is up with that? I like being short. I don't want to be tall. I'm going to start stunting my growth or something. I don't want to get any taller.

posted by ryryguy @ 11:52 PM 0 comments

Well I hope everyone likes the final style for this layout. I had fun using this, but after May, this will be retired. To something much better. At least I hope so.

I've been up way too late and I'm going to go sleep. When I wake up, I have to fill out the rebate card so I can get $50 and get the camera for my cell phone. Whee, it's so cute! ^_^

Ugh, need sleep.

Oh, and please don't steal my "B". I made it myself. :D

posted by ryryguy @ 4:42 AM 0 comments

Well, after tonight there will be only five episodes left. FIVE. You can count that on your fingers. I cried myself to sleep last night thinking about the end. It's not pretty. They can't do this to me.

Well, my drama class was canceled. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. So I sit in the library bored. And my finger looks really bad. No, it's healed. But all the infected skin is coming off of it. And I thought squeezing pus out of my finger was gross enough. Oh well.

What am I going to do with this thing?? I barely update it anymore. I have a new template I'm working on. It'll be the last used by this arrangment. But I don't know what to do after that. Maybe I can have someone help me with a new design.

Anyone have any ideas?

posted by ryryguy @ 10:02 AM 0 comments

I just had a really long post discussing things like the war, my health condition, and my new car. But I've lost my muse to completely re-write everything I said. And it was very well written too. So I'm going to go to math class now and you guys can just pretend Ryan actually said something profound.

posted by ryryguy @ 2:21 PM 0 comments

A BALLADS was released yesterday. I want to buy it. But the god damn pay check won't go through my bank. I only have $64.69 in my account. How shitty is that?? Whatever. Bank sucks. They changed the ATMs so now I have to ask them to spit my card back out. Why did they change it?? Don't they know how dangerious that is? It's incredibly lame. Stupid Wells Fargo. *curses*

posted by ryryguy @ 6:49 PM 0 comments

My Horoscope For Today
You might discover that you need to be a bit more assertive, Ryan. You like to work hard, and you tend to get along with all kinds of people. But when it comes time for a raise or a promotion, you are often too shy to ask for advancement. Right now, you could be in a situation that requires you to be bold. Don't be afraid to talk about your recent accomplishments and your overall expertise.

Okay, I know the astrology system is all fucked up, but sometimes I think they can be on the ball sometimes. You know, the constialltions move in the sky so much, that you aren't even the same sign the newspaper says. I'm actually a Aries right now. In a few hundred years, your birthday will move through all the signs. Pretty cool, huh?

Anyway, I think I'm starting to like Joe. But I don't know why. He's so much more my type than Wesley is. Today was awful. I couldn't keep my hands off of him. Tickiling him and so forth. Rubbing his head. I'm a slut. I'm a very slutty slut. Look at me, making perfectly straight guys eat out of the palm of my hand. What's with that?

posted by ryryguy @ 11:21 PM 0 comments

Well this disability has shined some light on what I should really focus my powers on. Although I can't find a boyfriend, using my new finger splint and my "fagmaker" powers, I can have any straight guy feeding out of my hand. I'm loving this. I can make them take care of me. *evil laugh*

I don't even know why I type on this damn machine. It hurts too much typing and it's hard to keep my fingers on the right keys. And I think the Vicodin is starting to kick in. I can hear Mariah Carey start to sound like a cow when she hits her high octive. ;_;

posted by ryryguy @ 10:38 PM 0 comments

Well today was hell. But to make a long story short, my finger was cut open at the doctor today. My ingrown nail was infected. I have vicodin now. I'll be okay. Now to something happy.

A Tribute
They're making a tribute cd for Ayumi Hamasaki. That's so cool. You can donate remakes of her favorite songs and artwork.
I really want to contribute to this cd. I don't know what to do. I wish I knew how to compose music. I'd love to help out.

posted by ryryguy @ 8:01 PM 0 comments

I hate my hands so much. My middle finger on my right hand has and ingrown nail. It hurts so much. It's all puffy and swollen. It's because I bite my nails. I try to stop, I even buy gum to chew on that instead of my fingers. But I can't chew gum at work. So I end up biting more at work. That and I don't like work. So I chew like crazy when I'm at work. I have to work today. And I don't want to. I don't want to go to work ever again. I hate working. It used to be something I liked to do. But now, all I want to do is get the fuck out of here. I hate Martinez. I hate everything in Martinez. I pray to god that something unfortunate happens to Martinez. I've been so busy working and going to school, that I don't have time for myself. No really, do I really have to be at work from 12 to 8:30? That's rediculious. Especially because I have to go to school tomorrow. I have to come home late and go straight to bed. Even though I don't, but I have to in order to get to school in the morning. I really hate complaining. I wish there could be a moment in my life where I didn't have to complain about.

posted by ryryguy @ 11:14 AM 0 comments

You know what I don't understand? Why I still haven't seen The Princess Diaries. Or any of these teen movies that have been out for years that I really want to see but just don't. I don't know what's wrong with me. It could be the fact that I'm not getting enough money. My job is sucking even more. I need some money. Every paycheck is getting smaller and smaller. I'm gonna have to start turning tricks or something. I need money. M-O-N-E-Y!!!!!!!!!!! Appear in my bank account, now!

posted by ryryguy @ 12:02 AM 0 comments

WHY!?! WHY??!! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!???

Okay, I'm glad I got that off my chest and onto the computer screen. Just letting out some Wesley fustrations. :P

posted by ryryguy @ 11:58 PM 0 comments

I seriously need to start thinking about the summer. What do I want to do and things. I'm thinking I might get a second job. That way I can start school again in the fall with a lot more money. Just that finding a good paying job with flexible hours is hard. I could go back to Water World if I wanted to, but that place is EEEVIILLL!!
They'd let me back though. And all that walking around and sun would be good for me.

You know what's a good show? Street Smarts. I turned it on last night and I laughed so hard. They had this one black woman on there that was so comical. The host asked her what Rocky Mountian Oysters are. And she was all, "Yo dude, that shit is nasty. You be eatin some bull balls and shit!" Of course, it was television so you just heard. "yo dude, *beeeeeep* *beeeeeeep* and *beeeeep*

I'm so tired of working at the theatre. It's like I don't enjoy it anymore. I'm tired of helping rude ass people. And kissing their asses. I'm not like that anymore. Well, not as much. I can be a bitch if I wanted to. And I find myself having to hold my tongue. To keep myself from saying something to offend someone and get myself fired. But it's the damn customers that drive me crazy. They walk in thinking their everything and walk all over you. I don't understand how people deal with this kind of stuff. It's like, "Look, I don't fucking care if the water is too expensive. Either you buy it or not. Don't complain to me, I don't make any of the decisions. And you can go fuck yourself while you're at it."

Wow, that felt good. I should vent here more often.

I want to go home. I'm tired and I'm hungry. And my throat is sore. Very sore. I'm so glad I didn't have to perform in drama today. SO GLAD.

And I like chewing gum.

posted by ryryguy @ 11:24 AM 0 comments

I Wanna Dance With Somebody

by Whitney Houston

Clocks strikes upon the hour
And the sun begins to fade
Still enough time to figure out
How to chase my blues away
I've done alright up 'til now
It's the light of day that shows me how
And when the night falls loneliness calls

Oh! Wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah! Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

I've been in love and lost my senses
Spinning through the town
Soon or later the fever ends
And I wind up feeling down
I need a man who'll take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart calls

Oh! Wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah! Wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

posted by ryryguy @ 11:08 PM 0 comments

I feel awful. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like my sinuses are on fire. They burn. My nose feels like there's something trapped up inside it. And it's not coming out. Which forces the rest of my face to burn because it's trying to get it out. It feels like air. I think it might be infected.

posted by ryryguy @ 2:02 PM 0 comments

I was wondering. Does anybody know what the chorus for "Gossip Folks" by Missy Elliot are? I bet Crystal knows. Her having the album and all. ^_^

posted by ryryguy @ 11:09 PM 0 comments

You know. This has been the best work I've ever done. I'm so proud of myself. I love you, Ayu!! *_*

I've been listening to that LAUCHcast radio all day today. All I can say is that my level of hatred of Christina Augilera has moved to zero. She had nice songs. I just don't aprove of her behavior. Cough syrup. That stuff works miricles. Especially Honey Cough. I love that stuff. *shameless plug*

posted by ryryguy @ 11:04 PM 0 comments

How do you all like the new look? I wasn't sure what picture I wanted next for my layout. But I've been listening to Rainbow non-stop for the past hour. And here it is. I hope everyone likes it. I haven't done such a colorful layout before. Or anything pink in that matter. I think this will be the last we see of this format. I'm going to try something new next month.

Allergies. I'm so sick. I'm so allergic to dust that I can't even clean my room. I only did a few things and I started to sneeze repeatedly. I was so out of it. I almost fainted. The front of my shirt was covered in snot from my sneezing attacks. This is so lame. How am I supposed to clean my room when I can't even go in there? I'm almost to the point of hireing somebody to clean it for me. My allergies are way too bad for this. *sniffle*

My Ayupan dolls came in today. They're really small. But really cute. Not worth $51, if you ask me. I should just go to Japan and visit that Ayupan store. Then maybe even catch an Ayu concert. ^_^
For those who don't know, Ayupan are little dolls that Ayumi Hamasaki gave out as suvaniers during her tours. They've become so popular that they are now released in stores along with other merchandise. There's even Ayupan candy.

I guess I'll talk about my dolls. They are two beanies that are modeled after two of Ayu's dogs. One of them is Crea. That's her favorite dog. It's a chihaua type dog and she even uses the dog's name as her stage name when she composes music. I know way too much about this woman. I hope I don't end up stalking her or anything. The next time I go to my mom's house, I'll take pictures of them and post them on the site. They're adorable.

posted by ryryguy @ 5:30 PM 0 comments