Chrysalis

This heat is killing me. Everything is hot. Even ice at this point. My only guess that it's gonna be hot from now until September. Why is it so hot? Does Mother Nature not understand that I don't have any money? I couldn't afford to buy spring clothes. How can I buy summer clothes. Ugh, I'm so miserable. My new glasses are too nerdy. My clothes are all old. I haven't worn a new original outfit in so long. People are probably suspecting something. ;_;

I used to be known as the person who never wore the same outfit twice. Now I wear the same outfit every week. And I've become so lazy. Instead of planning some neat outfit, I go straight for the sweater. I have like 10 sweaters. Why? I live in California! These things just are happening at the wrong time. Why cant I have a fashion crisis next year, when I can fully get over the fact that my favorite show in my whole life is gone. And I'll probably stop watching Angel unless they have plans on bringing Cordy back. I've lost everything. And it shows. People don't want to look at me when they talk to me. And it's probably no big deal to anyone else, but it is to me. I live to have people's attention. And when that's gone, I start to get depressed. Not like school helps with it. School depresses me more. It always has.

My acne has gotten worse. It's like I'm fucking 14 again. All these huge bumps on my face. It's awful. If I didn't have to work, I'd be in my room. Hiding from the outside world. "Don't come in, I'm ugly!"

Yeah. I look and feel like shit.

posted by ryryguy @ 7:11 PM